Although I continue to use this phase for situations like this, it now has new meanings. Now I look back and can think of the many things my Momma told me, life lessons, how much she loved me everyday, how beautiful I was, how great I was, etc. She has made me the woman and mother I am today. I have self worth, self confidence because she uplifted me EVERYDAY. This was brought to light a few weeks ago when I was having a conversation with one of my friends. We were discussing breastfeeding and all the ups and downs. One of her main complaints was that it was so hard going places and breastfeeding. I was extremely confused because that was one of the benefits I thought. I could go anywhere, pack only a diaper bag, and be able to feed Crew. No packing bottles, formula, hot water, etc. But for her this was a real hassle…she complained of having to pump before leaving the house and then if she ran out of pumped milk she would have to go back home. I’m thinking you crazy girl…just latch that baby on and carry on!! Her response to that, what made my heart sink, was “Oh I can’t nurse in public, I don’t feel comfortable enough”. It made me want to cry…it made me so sad to think that she probably wouldn’t breastfeed long because of this. Right then I knew…she didn’t have the confidence she needed. But why did I? Why did I think it wasn’t a huge deal to nurse anywhere and everywhere?? It’s because of my momma and what she instilled in me.
For everything my momma taught me and continues to teach me; I am forever grateful.